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Bye-bye Premium

Journal Entry: Tue Mar 5, 2013, 4:03 AM
Seeing as my premium membership expires tomorrow, I thought I'd say good-bye by using the sweet, sweet possibility of pimping your journal entries once more.

In other news, I will actually be starting uni in a few weeks - mixed feeliiiings :XD: But I'm mostly excited. I wonder how tough law is really going to be - and whether or not I'll end up sticking with it.
Also, I have a trip to London coming up in 2 weeks and I can't wait~, I miss London, haven't been in way too long.

Blah. I wish I had something meaningful or contemplative to share, but I really don't have anything on my mind right now. Or at least there's nothing that wouldn't take up a massive amount of time I don't have right now.
I can definitely say though that the calendar I bought for myself in the US a few months ago is getting on my nerves big time. "Getting in Touch with your Inner Bitch"... takes itself a bit too seriously. I mean. Most of these quotes and "inspirational" advice-like sentiments just make me shake my head.

Yeah, that was wildly interesting. Aynway. Time for me to hit the shower. I'll be back some time... when my journal isn't pretty anymore... T_T

  • Listening to: Ludovico Einaudi - Nefeli
  • Reading: Cloud Atlas
  • Eating: My nails
  • Drinking: Water


Fri Aug 24, 2012, 2:06 PM
  • Listening to: Jewish Folk
  • Watching: House M.D.
  • Playing: Alice: Madness Returns
  • Eating: My nails
  • Drinking: Water

Something that keeps occuring to me... a lot of us aspire to be tolerant - which is a good thing - but also a lot of us choose what to be tolerant towards.
Which is pretty hypocritical, but also pretty natural.

I'm no exception. Among other things, that I might not be as aware of, I don't tolerate intolerance. Now, I am aware of this for two reasons:
1. It's such a nice contradiction.
2. I find my reason for it quite rational.

A friend of mine brought it to my attention once that, if you choose to be tolerant, you should also have to be tolerant towards neo-nazis, who are still a big issue here (partly because of our painful awareness of our own history, but that's an entirely different rant). Because if you accept every opinion, that would have to include them, right?
Frankly, I don't see it that way.
My justification has always been that I am simply not willing to accept/tolerate a concept whose main focus is to not be tolerant. It seems logical to me, although of course in the end, it's nothing but a rationalization to make myself feel better about not being absolutely consistent with my own beliefs.

Now. While I am sure other people have other justifications, I cannot quite understand people who choose to, in an extreme example, choose to live by leftist/social principles and trash others for not being tolerant or respectful to certain things, while, on the other hand, bashing things they dislike themselves just as hard as any other person. And sometimes even harder than an average person, feeling justified by their principles - because if my convictions are good all in all, the things I get upset about must be really, really awful and wrong...
And I'm not even talking about Greenpeace issues or hate crimes here; the things these people I'm thinking about got really bitchy about weren't even worth throwing a hissy-fit over - and mostly things that were connected to other people's personalities, concerns or preferences.

I could get into this even deeper, but I guess my main point is this: It's easy to be tolerant towards the things you already like or find easy to deal with anyway. That doesn't make you tolerant quite yet. What makes you tolerant is being able to tolerate something, not because it's in your own interest or because it really doesn't bother or concern you either way, but because you know it's the right thing to do.

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I Hate Finishing Games

Journal Entry: Sun Jul 29, 2012, 6:45 AM

It sucks T_T It means the story's over and you no longer get to speculate about what's gonna happen next and and and... it's over :(
I just finished "Enslaved". Great game. But. It's oveerrr :(

Now I'll have to spend money again...

  • Listening to: Mando Diao - Down In The Past
  • Watching: One Piece <3
  • Playing: nothing as of this morning :(
  • Eating: Spaghetti
  • Drinking: Water

Schooooooool's out for...ever

Journal Entry: Fri May 25, 2012, 12:02 PM

I really need to write a journal.
I don't want the last one on my front page anymore.
So I'm gonna just write down some thoughts, seeing as how I really don't have a concept to go by or a real idea for my next rant.

Hi. How are things these days?
My very last regular day of school ever is ending and I don't really know whether to feel happy or sad. Most of all, I still haven't really fathomed it. I've spent the last 10 years of my life going to the same building every week-day of a good part of every year. Except for the occasional sick or lazy days, of course.
It's a weird feeling, really.
You look forward to it and when it's finally there, you don't really feel much different. Once again, the preceding excitement exceeds the actual feeling.

On the other hand, the next stage of my life will be university. So that's not all that different. I mean, it is. But in some ways, it isn't. And I guess working won't be all that different from uni.
But before I even start with all that, I really need to take some time off. That's what I'm really excited about. Traveling. I'll work my butt off for the next few months and then I'll finally get to do it. I've been waiting for this for years now. I wish I could see the whole world at once, actually. There are soooo many interesting places, cultures, languages, people (...) to discover. I really haven't planned a thing yet. But... man I wanna get started.

Also, I went to university for a week last week to take a look at japanology. It was tons of fun. Definitely will take that into consideration when deciding what I wanna study.


  • Listening to: The Road To El Dorado OST
  • Watching: Boy Meets World (6th time!)
  • Playing: iPod Games
  • Eating: your mom
  • Drinking: Water

le Meme exploitation

Journal Entry: Wed Mar 21, 2012, 3:19 PM
  • Listening to: SecretAgentBob
  • Reading: Mordsgouda
  • Watching: The Weekenders
  • Playing: iPod Games
  • Eating: your mom
  • Drinking: Water

I never thought I'd ever hear myself or, for that matter, ANYBODY say something like this, but: for a few months, I've been having the feeling that 4chan is being raped.

Now that might sound weird since it's normally our beloved imageboard that does the raping of brains, eyes and ears. I'm also sure that 4chan doesn't notice or can't be bothered because rape in general takes up a big part of it's daily schedule and content.
But a few months ago, the German youth - through some evil-minded higher power I have yet to get behind - finally discovered the wonderful, a little more safe for work version of 4chan that goes by the name 9GAG.
Ever since then, my facebook wall has been display to an immense never-ending shitstorm of "What ... thinks I'm doing"-palettes, forced memes and both unfunny and completely miss- and abused ragecomics while the people that so eagerly share them don't even know that particular term. They just call it "FUUU"-comics. Or. Something else. I just saw a fap-guy depicting someone cooking something.
Stupid copypastas.
Besides, I've been hearing "like a sir" and "if you know what I mean" and all that other shit at school for WEEKS and everytime I go "Please. Just stop." I get a disappointed look or an attempt to explain to me where the joke comes from.
...Bitch please.

Now all that may still be funny to a certain extent. But I've been face-palming for weeks upon seeing people on facebook going "Hey did you know the "True story" guy was based off of a screenshot of Barney?!?!" and others feeling smart by replying with "You don't say?"
Now aside from the fact that I get angry at how people stupidly just pick up whatever joke 9GAG throws at them without looking into it or even having the slightest idea that none of these jokes came out of nowhere, it is the mere constant, random usage of these KEWL inside jokes just BCUZ WE CAN that just makes me wanna drive my head into a wall.
I've never been 4chan's biggest fan and I probably never will be, but I have to give /b/ one thing: It makes its own jokes work. I don't know how and I'm pretty sure there's black magic involved. But for some weird reason /b/tards do have a certain kind of taste and sense of selection, which is exactly why not everyone of its 3 billion posts per second becomes a meme.

I used to like ragecomics. Now every goddamn rageguy I see makes me actually wanna immitate him.

I hate young people.

PS: New CSS because spring. Spring rocks my socks.

(PPS: rule 20)

...but you wouldn't know about it.

Sun Feb 26, 2012, 1:37 PM
  • Listening to: Meco - Blue Moon
  • Watching: ONE PIECE &lt;3
  • Eating: my nails
  • Drinking: Water

I have yet another person to thank for prolonging my premium membership: Huuuuuge thank you to :iconthe-wonderslug: for a whole year of these features I was already mentally preparing to lose  - my stamps and display options have become quite dear to me :XD:

Apart from that, it's time for another observational rant.
I've come across this... phenomenon quite a few times among the people I used to or still do call friends: Limiting individualism while, at the same time, promoting it.
Now I'm as annoyed by hipsters as the next guy but I think if someone does something out of the ordinary because they like it (and not simply to underline their uniqueness), that's completely fine. And as long as they're not hurting anybody by doing/liking/whatever-ing it, why look down on them?
Now, among these... let's say classmates of mine are a few which claim to be extremely individual and exceptional and oh being unique is such a wonderful thing and you don't know anything about it go away - and support being unique. Oh yes they do. As long as it falls into one of the categories they like themselves.


Look. Either you like people who are unique, are tolerant towards anyone's hobbies, or you aren't. But if you aren't, you can no longer claim to support individualism and people being colorful and different and special. If you only accept uniqueness if it's made out by things you like, you don't support being unique in general. You support some mutation of pop-culture you personally prefer.
Which is fine, too. But it pisses me off to talk to a friend about how being different is completely fine one day, and seeing her pull her nose into curls on another when I tell her about something interesting, but different/new somebody did or I liked.
As with many things, this is highly influenced by publicity. Depending on who does what, that "what" becomes the shit or just shit. Wether it be a celebrity or a kid at school. If the hottest guy on campus is into wearing collars, that might become the next trend. If it's that weird girl from that class you have in the afternoon doing the same thing, that's... well, weird.
And I'm not anywhere near unimpressionable. Hell no. But I try my very best not to be a hypocrite. And sure I think better of certain abnormalities than of others, depending on my own preferences. Everybody with emotions and interests does. But that's not the same thing as looking down on someone for being eccentric or having an unusual interest while still, at other times, constantly pointing out that "ohmagurr I LOVE uniqueness!"
No. You love promoting your own specific differences by claiming to be open-minded.
I hate young people.

And by the way: Being unique is SO mainstream.

A Thought on Atheism

Sat Jan 14, 2012, 5:52 PM

It seems to come up a lot whether atheism should be considered a religion or not. I keep getting the feeling that both theists and atheists get very bitchy and butthurt when people think it in fact is one.
Which is the point at which, to me, this very simple question pops up: ...Why?!
Admittedly, I have my opinions on this. But. Why is it such a touchy subject? Does it in any way degrade atheism to be defined as a religion? Does it in any way sully any other belief system to fall under the same term as believing there is nothing?

Actually, I spent a few seconds on thinking about how to phrase the last part of that sentence. Because "not believing anything" would've been wrong - you do believe to know that there is nothing to believe in. "Believe in nothing" would be the definition of nihilism. Terminology, once again, is everything :XD:

Anyway. Back to my actual point. The reason I decided to write this journal entry was the little discussion I accidentally started beneath a stamp. I felt like sharing the part of my last comment stating my view on this issue:

"(...) Reading your comment, you keep bringing up that you don't believe what other people do believe. That is exactly it. Belief. Sure atheists have "evidence" for thinking it's highly unlikely or even impossible that god exists, but theists have proof that he does - not necessarily proof that you or I would call bullet proof evidence, but the same goes the other way around. But there is no surefire way to call this or that the absolute truth. You can go ahead and do so, no matter which side you're on. But you actually have no grounds for it, theist or atheist.
Atheists therefore too choose to believe. Not in something, but they do believe that there is no divine existence. Now that may be the exact counterpart to classic religions which normally are built around some higher power, but it is, nevertheless, a belief system. Neither theists nor atheists know. Both camps think they do and they both call the other possibility ridiculous (at least the militant members), but the reason both sides still exist is because there is no definite proof. Both sides will try to tell you there is. But the mere fact that they both still have room to stand by their own belief proves them wrong in exactly that.

Nothing we think to know about the existence or non-existence of a god is more than theories. Everyone decides for themselves which one they deem to be the most plausible one or what they want to believe. But as long as atheism has no more hard proof on its hands than theism, it remains a belief system - and therefore a sort of religion."

Go here for the full discussion.

  • Listening to: Somebody That I Used To Know
  • Watching: Misery
  • Eating: Chocolate &lt;3
  • Drinking: Water

The Truth About 'Honesty'

Thu Dec 22, 2011, 3:37 PM

"Hey, don't get pissed at me, I'm just being honest!"

Even though I haven't heard that wimpy phrase in a surprisingly long period of time, there's always been something that's bugged me about it.
People, let me tell you something about honesty. Or that which people refer to when loosely using the term.
At this point, a definition might be in order.

Honesty. Absence of the contradicting vices of untruthfulness and deceit.

Now. One of the things that's always bothered me the most is that a lot of people use honesty as a rather lame excuse to be plainly rude above anything else. Telling someone "Well you're fat and ugly and you shouldn't even be allowed to live." is NOT what we generally define as honesty. That is what decent people call being a jackass. The honest version of that would be "Look, I really don't like you because [reason]. I don't enjoy being around you so please leave me alone."
Honesty ≠ Disrespect. If you have to treat someone disrespectfully to get your opinion across, you lack communicational skills. Or confidence. Or both.

Interestingly enough, a lot of the people that think of themselves as honest are also the ones that deceive themselves more than other people.
Being honest is not about being able to smear your opinion in the face of someone weaker than you, serving no other purpose than making yourself feel better. It's also not about intimidating or impressing anyone. In fact, real honesty is a lot like courage in some ways (also, I suppose you have to be brave to be honest, so it's not only similar, but connected in some situations).
Because the situations that reveal whether you actually are an honest person or not are not the ones where you don't care what your answer is gonna result in or when there are no consequences for what you say. It's the ones in which something is at stake. The ones in which, if you give the "wrong" answer, you could lose something that's important to you. Pass up an opportunity. Take a step you weren't ready to take yet. All those things that most of us like to put off for as long as possible - maybe even for forever.

Now I'm not saying that if you lie every now and then, you're automatically a dishonest person. There's not only the one and the other. Most of us - as with most things - are somewhere in between; lying, being honest, whatever seems more appropriate or helpful. And I'm not saying that's wrong. Or right. It's human. Which is why it pisses me off that some people can actually fool themselves into actually believing they are an honest person. It's good to aspire to become one. But don't assume you are one. Because once you reach that point at which you say "I'm always honest.", you stop checking if you really are. You rest your mind at ease knowing that you now are truly honest. Which will make you slide back into defending your hurtful behavior by claiming to be honest.

So, all you "honest" people who read this: do me a favor.
Stop fooling yourselves. Don't hide behind your self-perception.
Honesty is not easy. Honesty can mess things up really badly for you. Sometimes, social protocol even dictates us to lie, to make the "system" work. Most will think of someone who's being honest in one of those situations as "crazy", which is another rather loosely used word. Lying every now and then makes life a lot easier. Again, I'm not saying that's good. I don't think it is.
I think our world actually could be a better place if everyone was being honest all the time. Which of course will never happen because mankind consists of opportunists - and what better opportunity than to lie among nothing but honest people? And again, I don't mean being "brutally honest" - honesty to me also involves decency, integrity. Respectfulness. Which will make you refrain from hurting someone without explicitly being asked for it. It's not about being able to tell people off without feeling ashamed, it's about being honest about what you're feeling, what you think of the situation, your judgement, honest answers to difficult questions, unrelated to the consequences for either option. That makes things very complicated, while many people seem to think that being honest makes things easier for them. If that is how your "honesty" is working out for you in this world, let me put it this way:…

  • Listening to: Somebody That I Used To Know
  • Reading: Mordsgouda
  • Watching: Mock The Week
  • Drinking: Water

Just the usual blabla

Tue Dec 6, 2011, 11:07 AM
  • Listening to: Sheldon rambling
  • Reading: Mordsgouda
  • Watching: Big Bang Theory
  • Playing: Sims 3
  • Eating: I shall be making a pizza soon
  • Drinking: Water

First time I've ever gotten a Premium Membership - kindly given to me by :iconphellmes: and I'm so excited about it weeeeee~ :squee:

...Well maybe not that excited, but you get the point :) As can be seen, I immediately started exploiting this novelty by applying this friggin awesome skin to my journal :) I'll be sure to abuse that from now on - aswell as being able to put ridiculously narcissistic stamps on display :)

Anywho. I have nothing all that exciting to tell really, except maybe I finally got a gym membership. And I have to say... it is both amazing and also pretty embarassing how seeing others do worse than you never fails to cheer you up at least a little bit. And I can not be convinced that this doesn't apply to everyone to a certain degree :P Everyone gets a kick out of reassuring themselves by looking down on others. Oh yes... insecurity owns all of our fat asses :D
Speaking of which, with Christmas ahead, I can already feel the puffing up that's gonna be going on - I love chocolate way. too. much. :drool:

Btw: Thanks for the shitload of new watchers, even though it's kind of frustrating to get this much attention when I'm not uploading (drawn) art, I can't really complain and am thankful nonetheless. That's my rather complicated way of saying:  Thank you all for adding me to your watchlists, I hope you'll stay with me for at least a little while! :aww:

  • Reading: Mordsgouda
  • Watching: House
  • Playing: iPod Games
  • Eating: Chocolate :}
  • Drinking: Coke &amp; Water
I find it both amusing and depressing that apparently nowadays, your social status is established by the number of your facebook friends and the amount of times you're mentioned in a status update or tagged in somebody's profile picture. Not to mention the number of comments and thumbs up you gain on anything you broadcast on the interwebs (Hey! Comment on this will ya!)

The other day, I apparently pissed off a girl in my class by handing in the long-term assignment that was due that day - her reason being of course that she had better things to do than finishing it in time. Such as partying every night and celebrating her loss of memory every morning.
Her resolution was to storm off after said class, immediately find her best gurl to tell me off in my absence and - brace yourself for an immense shock - deleting me off her list of aquaintances, otherwise known as "Friends List on Facebook". As if that wasn't enough to make me cry yet, her best friend - who I have occasional friendly talks with, having known her for a lot longer than the girl that was actually angry at me - also deleted me.
Yeah man. You sure showed me.

I yet again frown upon the lack of maturity in oh so many people my age. And in pretty much anyone over 16, at which point to me it becomes kind of sad if you do such things as never confronting people about the problems you have with them. Seriously? What's the point in acting like you don't take shit from noone if you can't even confront them about unimportant shit like this when at the same time, you're letting it get to you so much?
Although. I should probably assume that... what I consider an overreaction is just the right amount of daily drama for an attention whore.
  • Listening to: Katy Perry - E.T.
  • Watching: House
  • Playing: iPod Games
  • Drinking: Nothing, all out :(
So here's something that's never happened to me in my life before: I got bit by a damn mosquito. During October. In my LIP. FUUUUUU.


I rediscovered a few days ago how as a kid, EVERYTHING is fascinating and/or causes drama. Le example:
I was walking home from school, some kids were getting their huge backpacks on their bikes when one of them looked inside and yelled: "My water bottle's gone!!! D:" and kept on yelling it another 2 times until one of her friends reacted. Now, first thing: Ppl at my age only do this when they're drunk or to amuse themselves and/or others.
So this other kid goes on yelling back: Whaaat? Where'd you leave it?!
First kid: I dunno, it's not THERE!
Third kid: Was that apple juice in there?
First kid: It's gooooone! :(
Third kid: Heeyyyy, there was - there was this full bottle of apple juice in the other classroom on the table, was that yours?!
First kid: What? Yeah, I had a full bottle, now it's gone!
Third kid: I knooow, I saw one, I saw one on the table! Apple juice!
First kid: Yeah, apple juice!

...then I put in my headphones. Mind you, that whole conversation was yelled. There were almost no more ppl there. And they were standing 2 meters apart from each other, tops (that should be about 6.5 feet for you americans out there).
Now, looking past the fact that this is plain annoying - to me it's interesting to think about these things. How would I or my peers have reacted? Probably just went "Hey wait, my bottle's gone. Ah damn." And went home.
And this is one of the things I don't miss about being a kid: Getting yourself so damn worked up about meaningless stuff such as this. I get worked up enough as it is :P
  • Listening to: Andioliphilipp - Mutter Theresa
  • Watching: HIMYM
  • Playing: Fire Emblem
  • Drinking: Waterrrr
...get a helmet.

There's oh so many songs I feel like quoting atm. It's weird how no matter what situation you're in, you always seem to know a song that expresses exactly what you're feeling. Or a whole bunch of them.
But. I will keep on resisting that urge. And instead say this. Dear men. For your own good. Stop fucking things (up), please.

nuff said, good night, peace out.

Survey time!

Fri Aug 5, 2011, 1:03 PM
  • Listening to: Aloe Blacc - I Need A Dollar
  • Playing: Alice: Madness Returns
  • Eating: HaRiBo
  • Drinking: Waterrrr
Haha, I haven't done one of these in forever - haven't been this bored in a while I guess :XD:
Using dA's birthday skin. Because I'm a cheap bastard that's never had a premium membership evar and therefore no awesome journal skins, either. This is kind of a highlight for me :B

Anyway. Here we go. This was stolen from a troll's journal.

1)Are you really ready for 111 questions?
Looking at how I don't have anything else to do, yesh.

2) Where are you taking this test at?
Home, my sunny room, sitting in front of my awesome computer, the love of my life.

3) Was your last real relationship a mistake?
I am currently in my first real relationship, so no. As for my last relationship minus "real", yes.

4) Who did you last say "I love you" to?
My baby :)

5) Do you regret it?
No. Not one bit :)

6) Have you ever been depressed?
Depressed as in diagnosed with depression? Yes. Few years ago and not for that long, luckily.

7) Are you a boy or girl?
Gal :3

8) Do you have a job?

9) What is your relationship status?
Very taken :heart:

10) How do you want to die?
Old, in my bed, knowing the people I love will remember me... and get over my death quickly.

11) What did you last eat?
Yakisoba. Hours and hours ago, ohgodi'msohungry.

12) Played any sports?
Ever? Yes. Atm? Naw.

13) Do you bite your nails?
Yes -_-

14) When was your last physical fight?
Honestly, no idea. Last time I went to my Kung-Fu class?

15) Do you have an attitude?
I try my best to reduce it slowly.

16) Do you like someone?
I feel like I've answered this question at least twice now.

17) What is your real name?
Pippilotta Delicatessa Windowshade Mackrelmint Ephraim's Daughter Longstocking

18) What is the background of your computer screen?…

19) Are you gonna get high later?
I'm naturally high, baby. What kind of question is this?

20) Do you hate anyone at the moment?
Hate is a pretty strong word... don't know?

21) Do you miss someone?

22) Twirl or cut your spaghetti?
Uhm, hello? Twirling all the way.

23) Do you tan a lot?
I either magically stay white or roast like a turkey.

24) Have any pets?
Kitteh :)

25) How exactly are you feeling?
Bored. Duh.

26) Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving?
Fries :)

27) Ever made out in the bathroom?
Not yet...

28) Would you take any of your exes back?
Maybe one. Not atm anyway :)

29) Are you afraid of spiders?
Not really. It kinda depends on their size, but they have to be pretty damn big.

31) Do you regret anything from your past?
Probably, can't think of anything spontaneously, though.

32) What are your plans for this weekend?
Nothing yet, really. Depends on my mood.

33) Do you want to have kids?
Yep. Not anytime soon, though.

34) Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with an M?
Would've wanted to, but no.

35) Do you type fast?

36) Do you have piercings?
Earrings. Bestest piercing ever.

37) Want any more?
Yeah, I'll hav eto get to that some time.

38) Can you spell well?
I'm a spelling bee. At least in my mother tongue.

39) Do you miss anyone from your past?

40) What are you craving right now?
Foooooooooood :(

41) Ever been to a bonfire party?
Nope... not that much of a party girl, really.

42) Have you ever been to jail?

43) Have you ever been on a horse?
Yes, that was a loooong time ago, though. Never was into horseback riding as a kid.

44) Kissed someone in a pick up truck?

45) Have you ever broken someone's heart?
Yeah... 3 times... not really proud of it.

46) Have you ever been cheated on?
Not that I know of. So no.

47) Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
Yes :[

48) What time is it currently?

49) Would you live with someone without marrying them?

50) What should you be doing?
Nothing. Vacantions rock :)

51) What's irritating you right now?
I'm not up for writing a whole novel about one tiny thing into my journal atm.

52) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts?

53) Does somebody love you?
Yes. More than one somebody, but that somebody especially :)

54) What is your favorite color?
Orange :)

55) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
It happens.

57) Do you have trust issues?
Sometimes. But most of the time I'm pretty rational, I think.

58) You are over half way done with this. Are you sure you want to continue?
Eeeh. Would kind of be a waste of the time I've wasted on this so far if I didn't.

59) Do you have any siblings?

60) Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

61) Do you live with anyone?

62) Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you?
Mhyes. Would be weird if they didn't (not because of me, because of... human nature)

63) Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Ehrm, my mum, I think.

64) Do you give out second chances too easily?
I give out second chances a lot and I always think it's the right thing. No "too".

65) Is it easier to forgive or forget?
Depends. With the right circumstances, forgiving is A LOT easier.
Without them, both is pretty much impossible for me.

66) Is this year the best year of your life?
Pretty much. Last year was pretty intense and good, too.

67) What was your child hood nickname?
A shortened version of my first name... my mom still uses it :)

68) Have you ever walked outside completely naked?
Used to do that a lot during the summer when I was little :D

69) What is your motto in life?
Don't give up and do your best. I guess that kinda sums up my general attitude.

70) Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
I don't really know or care about those kind of theories.

71) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Played on my DS.

72) Do you have a best friend?
Yes :) Have had her for over 10 years now and I wouldn't want to miss her.

73) What is bothering you?
I probably shouldn't have started doing this...

74) Have you ever been out of your country?
Many many times - yay for Europe! :P

75) Do you play the Wii?
If I get the chance to, I usually do.

76) Are you listening to music right now?
Farin Urlaub - Die Leiche :heart:

77) Do you like Chinese food?
I could run on (grilled noodles). So yes :)

78) Do you know your Sep-Dad b- day?
Sep-Dad? Whut. ._.

79) Are you afraid of the dark?
Not usually.

80) Is cheating ever okay?
What, cheating on somebody? No. Cheating on something? Depends.

81) Are you mean?
No. A bit selfish sometimes, but not mean.

82) Can you keep white shoes clean?
Yeah; the trick is not to wear them.

83) What was the last song you listened to?
Seeed - Aufstehn!

84) Do you believe in true love?
According to my own definition, yes. There is no absolute form of true love. Like there is no absolute form of anything.

85) What are you currently wearing?
A summer dress.

86) What do you wear to bed?
My birthday suit ;) And thick socks.

87) What is the weather like right now?
Dark. Hahahaha *snort*

88) Do you like the outside?
Definitely :) Nature is awesome, man.

89) Are you currently bored?

90) Do you wanna get married?
At some point, yes. But I don't think it's absolutely necessary to be happy with someone.

91) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
I'm pretty used to it by now, never thought I'd like it.

92) Are you hungry?
Not anymore :)

93) Have you ever made out for more than a half hour straight?
... :)

94) What makes you happy?
A lot of things. But compliments definitely always do the trick.

95) Would you change your name?
Mh. Nah.

96) Ever been to Alaska?

98) Do you watch the news?
Yes. Not as often as I probably should, though.

99) What' s your zodiac sign?
Leo :3

100) Do you like Subway?
It's alright :)

101) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

102) Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
Depends on what they do.

103) Do you like talking to your friends?

104) What do you plan to do with the rest of your day?
Mope around and ggo to sleep.

105) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them?
More than once.

106) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?
Absolutely :)

107) Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

108) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
It doesn't really, but it's a BIG turn-off initially.

109) Who's the last person you had a deep conversation with?
One of my besties.

110) Favorite lyrics right now?
Maeckes & Plan B - Rap Getan :XD:

111) Can you count to one million?
I know myself around numbers, yes, thank you. So can? Yes. Want? Hell no.

God I did it. It's amazing when something you do to fight boredom becomes the source of even greater boredom and annoyance =D

  • Listening to: Welcome to Tijuana!
  • Watching: The Boondocks
  • Playing: Suikoden Tierkreis (*hump*)
  • Eating: Fingernails
  • Drinking: Waterrrr's already been a year since I put something new in here again? A year and a month, actually. Duuuude.

Nah, seriously. I could just start repeating the stuff I said in that journal I posted a year ago. But if you're actually interested in that, you can just go check on that again, I guess. I just still find it amazing I absolutely never feel the desire to blog anymore. I blame facebook.
So hey, I'm not too far from finishing my 12th year - then I get 6 weeks of summer vacation and then, woohoo, I'll start my very last year of school, preparing for graduating. Pretty cool. Just that there's waaaaaaayyyyy too many options after that. Only good thing about that is the knowledge that I'm by far not the only one that lost in a world of possibilities :XD:
Can't really complain about that without having to feel unthankful, anyway, right?

What else... I feel I shouldn't go into detail about my love life atm in case anything changes... and also mostly because it's my love life, a-duh :slow: What I can definitely say is that I'm happier than I've ever been before when it comes to love.

Other than that I went on an exchange to NC in April. And it was awesooooooome! :) It's so far away now again... I miss my host family and the people I met at school... that's the part I hate about meeting people during your travels. Wouldn't make me want to miss out on any of those missable acquaintances under any circumstances, though :heart:
And at least my partner's gonna get here soon :) And I'll be taking this year's last exams this week. Oh yeah. Life is good ^_^
  • Listening to: Music from
  • Playing: Apollo Justice (2nd time... kinda pointless xD)
  • Eating: Fingernails
  • Drinking: Waterrrr
I noticed today that, around the time that I joined deviantART, I probably would have put a lot of journals up if the stuff happened that's happening in my life at the moment. Because that's a big part of what I could rely on at the time. The internet. It's pretty sad, but it's true.
The reason why it isn't that big a deal anymore (emotionally) is probably the same reason I have for hardly ever posting journals (that, and the fact that nobody reads them anyway :XD:).

Because it's not like my life is some kind of disaster or news story at the moment, but, you know, stuff happens - and that's what goes into a journal, right? I'm head of our crappy little school newspaper, trying to get it back out there after it disappeared for more than 3 years... the friendships that I developed over the past few years aren't as great as they used to be, well most of them at least. Everyone in my class seems to have cooled off a little and I'm starting to get annoyed with the people I used to love being around. I'm kind of out of ideas how to fix that... and I'm starting to lose interest in doing so. Interesting part is, my dearest friendships are outside of my current class.
I'm still not a great party person... I guess I never thought I'd grow up to be one anyway and come to think of it, I used to be one of those kids that took some real pride in being convinced that they wouldn't turn into someone that does all of that teenage shit. Up to this point, I've been doing pretty well :XD: Not because I want to stay true to my 11-year-old self, but because... well, I do what feels right.
Right now, I don't really know what I want. I enjoy dancing, I enjoy music, I love being around people and I've even had a good time going to a club by now. But I hate those house parties were everyone seems to be having a blast drinking, puking and rubbing against anyone that's drunk enough and comes at hand. It's as if people lose their brains when they do that stuff - I guess that's the plan but I really don't approve of it. I like to have fun, but not like that. Gotta find my niche. Or just wait until the people my age grow into my way of thinking. Does that sound arrogant? I guess it does, but heck, what can I do about it. I'm not perfect and I'm not mature about everything, but I guess I'm just more naive than childish. And I choose to believe that there's gotta be a way to be around people other than to squeeze into tight pants, go drink your brains out and try to become attention whore number 1. I want to be able to talk, dammit. Have a nice conversation over some ice cream or what do I know. Maybe even in some tight pants, who cares. I remember doing that with my classmates not that long ago - where did that go?

Woo. So, in 2007, each one of these issues probably would have gotten their own entry right after they occured to me. Today, I just felt like writing something down... and getting that huge survey off my front page. And sorting out my thoughts, I suppose. We'll see what will become of all those things... but I probably won't keep my journal updated. As always^^
  • Listening to: Matt Costa - Acting Like A Fool
  • Reading: The Colour Purple
  • Watching: Kimi ni Todoke
  • Playing: Scribblenauts
  • Eating: Chocolate &amp; Fingernails
  • Drinking: Waterrrr
Yay, I haven't done one of these surveys in suuuuuuuuuuch a long time... :]

Hetalia Quiz!
~The Axis Powers~

North Italy (Vargas Feliciano)

[ ] You were bullied a lot in your childhood
[X] You adore pasta, pizza, cheese, and fruit.
[ ] You're very happy-go-lucky
[ ] You constantly have a dozy look on your face as if you're always away with the fairies
[ ] You have a long curly strand of hair that always tends to stick up
[X] You're a good artist
[X] You can be clumsy
[X] You have a friend you always depend upon if you mess up something
[ ] If your life was in danger, you would do the typical Italian thing and say: "PLEASE DON'T KILL ME! I HAVE RELATIVES IN YOUR COUNTRY!"
[X] You would surrender in a war situation


Germany (Ludwig)

[ ] You're very stoic and serious
[ ] Sausages are your favorite foods.
[ ] You like to walk dogs/your dog
[X] Your boss/principal/tutor/home-room teacher is a nut-case.
[ ] You love rules and think they should always be followed
[X] You think the world would be better if everyone played by the rules
[X] You work very hard too hard...
[ ] Your alone time is your 'happy time'
[X] You can appear tough but be very considerate towards people
[X] You've had issues with money once or twice


Japan (Kiku Honda)

[X] You're very mature
[X] You think everything over before saying it.
[ ] You believe in ghosts but aren't phased by the experience when you see one
[ ] You isolated yourself during childhood
[ ] You became very successful in a short amount of time
[ ] You are somewhat inexperienced when it comes to the outside world
[ ] You can seem cold/aloof to other people
[ ] You're good at practical tasks
[ ] You need time to adjust to new people


~The Allies~

The United States of America (Alfred F. Jones)

[X] You love hamburgers
[ ] You think you're awesome
[ ] You love to invent things
[X] You love going to the cinema/watching films/making films
[X] You can seem to be very brash to other people
[X] You have a tendency to stick your nose into other peoples' business
[ ] You're terrified of ghosts
[ ] You know aliens exist
[ ] You tend to wear a bomber jacket all the time
[X] You wear glasses


The United Kingdom of England, Wales, Scotland, and Northern Ireland (Arthur Kirkland)

[X] You like tea
[ ] You were quite tough and troublesome as a kid
[X] You're very sarcastic and cynical
[X] Your cooking is awful
[ ] You love spiritual magical stuff, such as fairies, ghosts...
[X] ...But you refuse to believe in aliens.
[ ] You have tried doing black magic before
[ ] You get drunk quite easily.
[ ] When you are drunk, you tend to be very unhappy
[ ] You're good at embroidery


France(Francis Bonnefoy)

[X] You're very affectionate
[ ] You think you have a great fashion sense
[ ] You like wine
[ ] You're the master of whispering romantic things into peoples' ears
[X] You love red roses
[ ] When it comes to l'amour, you don't mind men or women
[X] You're very proud of yourself
[X] You love culture and the arts
[ ] You're very flamboyant
[ ] You say you're a gourmet


Russia (Ivan Braginski)

[ ] You had a very sad childhood.
[X] You're very tall
[ ] You have a tendency to switch between personalities
[ ] You wear a scarf all the time
[X] You love sunflowers
[ ] You love vodka
[X] You can seem intimidating to other people
[ ] You're very strong
[ ] You have a big nose
[ ] You have a strange laugh that can scare people


China (Wong Yao)

[X] You're very mature
[ ] You're very superstitious
[ ] You're very religious
[X!] You love pandas
[ ] You love cooking so much that you nag if food has a certain pattern of tastes
[ ] You love Hello Kitty
[ ] You try to be a role-model for your brothers/sisters/whatever,but are never taken seriously.
[X] You work hard
[X] You're good at drawing
[X] You like sweets


~And now for some other countries~!

Austria (Roderich Edelstein)

[X] You are very well-raised
[X] You're polite
[X] You love classical music
[X] You like cake
[X] You have a mole on your face
[X] You dedicate your time to your hobbies rather than what needs to be done right away
[ ] You are a virtuoso/play very well on at least one instrument
[X] You've composed music before
[ ] You tend to call people 'morons'
[X] You wear glasses


Canada (Matthew Williams)

[ ] You're often ignored by people
[ ] You look younger than you actually are
[ ] You love hockey
[X] You love polar bears
[X] You hate fighting
[ ] You have one strand of curly hair, like Italy
[ ] You often get mistaken for someone else
[X] You feel under-appreciated
[X] You're bilingual
[X] You always carry a bear with you (at least I'd love to :) )



[ ] You smoke
[ ] You're very physically strong
[ ] You've won a lot of fist-fights
[ ] In your social circle, there are two brothers you get along with one, but not with the other.
[X] You have very strong emotions about a variety of topics
[ ] You like hot weather
[X] You can be very friendly from time to time
[ ] You look very tough on the outside
[ ] You make a very nice role-model
[X] You don't let people get a word in edgewise


Hungary (Elizavéta Hédeváry)

[X] You have a potty-mouth
[ ] You like to wear flowers in your hair
[X] You used to be a very tough kid
[X] You're very reliable
[ ] It's better to have you as a friend rather than an enemy
[X] You're very faithful
[ ] Your speech and mannerisms can be considered very unladylike
[ ] You and your best friend go together like chalk and cheese.
[X] You are graceful one moment and grinning like a maniac the next
[ ] If someone yells that yaoi is going on somewhere, you will drop everything to run off to go and see it.


Lithuania (Toris Lorinaitis)

[X] You're very loyal
[ ] You feel like your best friend drags you around a lot, but you both have a great time together
[ ] You're very serious
[X] You have a lot of patience
[ ] You think too much about philosophical stuff
[ ] You get depressed when questioning the point of existing/the universe, etc..
[ ] You're not very confident
[ ] You were quite rebellious as a child
[ ] People tend to walk all over you
[X] You're a born worrier


Poland (Feliks Lukasiewicz)

[ ] You're very flamboyant
[ ] You're quite hyperactive
[X] You can be quite goofy
[ ] When you're depressed, you tend to rise out of it like a phoenix
[ ] You're very wary of strangers
[ ] It takes you ages to come out of your shell
[X] However, when you're used to someone, you're very chatty
[X] You're very forceful and stand at one end of the argument when it comes to your opinions
[ ] You love pansies and corn-poppies
[ ] You get up to lots of crazy antics


Prussia (Gilbert Weillschmidt)

[ ] You're quite mean-spirited
[ ] You're a bit of a hooligan
[X] You're very loyal
[ ] You're very good at tactics
[ ] You hate Russia
[ ] You love to fight people
[ ] You can avoid marriages quite well
[X] You're not always taken seriously
[ ] You like drinking
[X] You want to become stronger



Heh... Austria much? :XD:
  • Listening to: Sonique - I Wanna Fly So High
  • Watching:
  • Playing: Bully - Scholarship Edition
  • Eating: Still Fingernails
  • Drinking: Waterrrr
You know it's funny... I have 5 pages of journal entries and apart from the "newest" 2, they all date back to 2007. I used to post journals so often... and about the smallest things, too. And looking at how many journals I get in my inbox every week, many ppl on here are very VERY active about this.
So... I don't know. Just... something I come to realize once in a while.

Mh, what has been going on in my life... I'm in the 11th grade now, which means: only 3 more years til my A-levels, yay. There have been some changes among my classmates and friends lately... people breaking up and similar things that really make you feel bad even when you're not really involved, as in some cases...^^"
Next week I'm gonna be on a work experience week - or whatever you call that - at an advertising agency. It's gonna be fuuuun~ at least I hope and think so :] Might report about how it's going down... just to try and get the journals rollin again... :meow:

Good day to y'all^^

EDIT: Mh... Guess things aren't rly changing this time, either :D Concerning my routine with journal entries, that is.
Well, anyway: I had a great and interesting week. Funny thing is, I didn't really do anything else than when I open Photoshop at home when I was doing stuff on my own :D But apart from that, I got some interesting insights and the people were really really nice aaaaaaand... mh. Now I have to write a report about the week for school. Meh. That's the suckage-part. Oh well :XD:
  • Listening to: Cool music C=
  • Reading: Dann bin ich eben weg
  • Watching: Weird anime and sick films O_o&quot;
  • Playing: Castlevania: Order of Ecclesia
  • Eating: Still Fingernails
  • Drinking: Still Spit
One year and 2 months? One freaking year and 2 months?
I really don't have the nerves to really update my page :drop:

Whatevs, this is mostly being written because I want to get rid of my last entry =D So, what's new... nothing really. As those of you who actually still watch me (:hug:) might have noticed, I am uploading pics in loads every two or three months. That's because I forget to upload them when they're "fresh" - or I'm just too lazy for it.
Either way, I guess this won't change during the next... years, eeeh, I mean time =D
  • Listening to: Running In the 90's
  • Reading: Nothing rly...
  • Watching: Uh...
  • Eating: Fingernails
  • Drinking: &lt;.&lt; &gt;.&gt; ...Spit
It's been a while again... I guess you'll have to read this every time I suddenly pop up again after disappearing for several weeks @_@
I don't know, most of the time I'm just not in the mood to visit dA :( sometimes I forget about it... blah blah blah.
The thing is, as you may have noticed, I'm not visiting this site too often anymore -.-"
And when I do visit it, I often just search for some pics or what do I know...
I feel kinda guilty, but I guess I just won't find the time to comment all my friends' stuff anymore :/ sry, guys v_v every time I come back I have to go through... don't know, ~300 deviations...? x_x"

So, that's it for now >.>
  • Listening to: Stephen Lynch - Ugly Baby
  • Reading: Bridget Jones
  • Playing: Donkey Kong Country 2 ^^v
  • Drinking: Water
I guess this was posted as some news sometime for it's a major change - I never read the news. So whatever.

WTF is up with that mature content filter...? Not allowed to see mature pictures until the age of 18, changing date of birth not possible? Uhm, hello? I mean, that's what that filter was about, right - deciding if you want to see the questioning pictures all by yourself Ôo And since dA deletes the rly "bad" pics anyway...?
It just makes me mad. What do you think, that everyone will accept this...? There's the possibility of singning up again or... don't know. The only thing this will lead to - at least when it comes to me - will be that I won't set any pics of mine to mature filter anymore. And I hope and think I'm not the only one who thinks like that.